I've spent the past week saying goodbye to friends and family as I prepare for my move to Japan. I've gone to my favorite restaurants to eat the food I will miss. I've gone to the theaters and rented the movies that I have been wanting to see. My mother and grandfather have been a huge help, each time saying how they will miss me and that they don't want me to go. My friends are happy for me, most of them excited but a few mad that I am leaving. Oddly enough I think I will miss my cats Monkey and Cerulean the most since its hard to tell them that I will be going or to even know that they will miss me. Theres also no good way to interact with them from afar, cats don't seem to hold much interest in phone calls or web cams.
So many things are still left undone yet everything I truly have needed to do I have somehow managed. My bags are packed, my clothes for tomorrow are set aside, my bike is boxed up and ready for transit. I have tried weighing my bags and they seem to be within acceptable limits. I am amazed how much stuff I am able to fit into the bags and yet also amazed how little room it all takes. I am really moving away, very far away from all that I know and that knows me.
Yet I could not be happier. I need a major change in my life so I can work on changing myself for the better. I have been so worried that I will stagnate here or end up living with my mother or grandfather till I am 30, 40, or worse. I am hoping that going to Japan will be a catalyst for a lot of positive changes in my life. Even if I end up dieing due to my choice, even on the trip over, it is worth it.
Japan, living on my own, and being away from any of my safety nets will force me to change whether I want to or not. That I want to change should make it all the better. One of the best ways to change habits or ingrained patterns is to change your environment. And I can think of few changes more drastic than moving from Michigan in the United States to Japan.
This is my last day at home.
This is the last night in my bed here.
Tomorrow I will not be living with my mother, or grandfather.
Tomorrow I will be on my journey to Japan.
In less than a week I will be at my new apartment in Japan with a new job.
In less than a week I will have spent my first day at home.
So many things are still left undone yet everything I truly have needed to do I have somehow managed. My bags are packed, my clothes for tomorrow are set aside, my bike is boxed up and ready for transit. I have tried weighing my bags and they seem to be within acceptable limits. I am amazed how much stuff I am able to fit into the bags and yet also amazed how little room it all takes. I am really moving away, very far away from all that I know and that knows me.
Yet I could not be happier. I need a major change in my life so I can work on changing myself for the better. I have been so worried that I will stagnate here or end up living with my mother or grandfather till I am 30, 40, or worse. I am hoping that going to Japan will be a catalyst for a lot of positive changes in my life. Even if I end up dieing due to my choice, even on the trip over, it is worth it.
Japan, living on my own, and being away from any of my safety nets will force me to change whether I want to or not. That I want to change should make it all the better. One of the best ways to change habits or ingrained patterns is to change your environment. And I can think of few changes more drastic than moving from Michigan in the United States to Japan.
This is my last day at home.
This is the last night in my bed here.
Tomorrow I will not be living with my mother, or grandfather.
Tomorrow I will be on my journey to Japan.
In less than a week I will be at my new apartment in Japan with a new job.
In less than a week I will have spent my first day at home.
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